FLR & BDSM

  Ok this may be long winded.  I have learned that I enjoy this life until something goes wrong.  I think my nature is when something goes awry that I can get a bull dog mentality. Which is exact opposite of what a sub does, so if I am to be subservient to my queen that trait needs to change.  So we made sort of a agreement. Now I agreed to the terms of said agreement. Then towards the end of the thar first week found she was hold to agreement. In turn that made me sour to the prospect. Does the queen have the right to change her mind on the agreement and just not say anything 🤔. If so is it out of line for the sub to decide that said Queen isn't fulfilling agreement and decide to rebel in some way.  I believe that if I as a sub fail to fulfill up to the requirements in said agreement that punishment will be issued. Any punishment that the queen sees fit. What is protocol if the queen doesn't meet the requirement set in the agreement?  Does it null and voi...

 Well our first hiccup and not sure how this will turn out. I made a comment that pissed off the Queen. She verbally attack me and I responded. Then I remembered our agreement and I back off and walked away. She is the dominant I am the sub. I felt I made my case clear and walked away.  Later I went to said I was sorry and truly meant it.  She was leaving but I got a text and it said so much for FLR. Like she was done with it. I stated I felt I stay with in the our contract but she didn’t.  I have seen her eye rolls and being reluctant to engage. So I had planned to take sex  off the table for whole month of June. But I never got the chance to bring it before she was pissed off and in turn attacked me and initially I wanted to attack back but back off. So I explained the this experiment didn’t work and that we will move on. She said she was fine. Then she admitted she was good for this to be over.   We have company coming tomorrow and they are nosey enough ...

    Over the weekend www.flogmebaby.com  had a sale . I have been on the receiving end of a few of Steve’s torture devices. He had a few items on sale that I was interested in. Queen had broke the wooden paddle on me and though the wooden slapper above isn’t a replacement, it pleased her today.  When I got home I message that it probably not funishment night but we had some new toys.  She got home about half hour later with some things she picked up at Costco. Once she seen them laid out we forgo the formality of taking a shower. She wanted me to instantly drop my pants bend over the couch and take a few hits with each device. I will say I too loved each one. The weight of the thick leather flogger left quite the impression on my derrière. The fact that the handle can be lube after a flogging and used as a metal dildo makes it an interesting tool. Then came the short Tassle flogger that left some stinging point after the impact of the heavy flogger then came the...

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY              Woke up as queen got ready before leaving for her morning workout. My cough was worse this morning and my energy was low. Not sure why my energy was low. Getting sick? Rough night of crazy dreams? Or was it from out extended session last night. Due to the fact I was blindfolded I am not sure how long the funishment was but I know I went to the room at 1030 and crawled into bed about 1230. Best guess is the pain session was 45 to 60 minutes. Queen mention she used 14 different torture items. I agreed cause before I am allowed to touch her I must clean /disinfect all devices. Along with the pegging. Watching my queen masturbate and allow to cum was 2 hours total.     I was so tired this AM that I slept most of the time Queen was gone. I did get up to do a few things. But took small catnaps between things.      We had a cook out scheduled with some friends up North at 2pm. BBQ chicken capri sal...

 I had been warned that something was coming this weekend. I would ask every so often to see if there was a chance I might get sneak preview. I was told to come down to the room  and put up  the doggy gate. I was blindfolded then hands secured behind my back. Wire cloths pins clamped on my balls. I find out later that 10 different funishment tools.  My tool was leaking a steady stream so she put a sock on it.  I got quite a lot of funishment even broke skin  End of the plastic cane broke a little skin.  Anyway no harm no foul. I got to watch her orgasm and allowed to have mine. 9 1/2 of 10 I  would say.

 I had a long thought session yesterday about this lifestyle we have venture into. First if you were to tell me that I would be into kinky things such as getting turned on by a crop, or paddle or my wife telling me to suck her dick as she grabs my head and shoved her strap on into my mouth. I would laugh you right out of the house. So imagine my surprise when my wife had me strung up naked in the middle of a room as she along with another woman flogged me hard and I thoroughly enjoyed it or being comfortable in bed and she walk in with her torture device for the session and I willing get into position.  Now if you know me you would know I am open minded to alternate lifestyles. I can tell you before my wife and I had a great life. Things would go well for couple months but then we would hit a period of fighting. We tried counseling but I didn’t like the path we were on. I can say that’s a sore spot with my wife. Right now all that intense fighting has been thwarted by the FLR ...